I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. Remember, there are people who care about you and want to support you through difficult times.
If you're in the United States and in crisis, you can call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255) or chat with a crisis counselor online at suicidepreventionlifeline.org/chat/. If you're outside of the US, please search for a helpline or crisis support service in your country.
Please take care and reach out to someone who can help you.